Some people say being in love is feeling as though you would do anything for another person…. I don’t think that is an adequate description at all. I don’t know it is something that I could never imagine saying to another person, but I have. When he first told me I felt like he was holding my heart in his hands and offering me his in exchange. I don’t feel like I fully understand my feelings even now, but being in love, I think, is something that has become trivialized and contorted to convince ourselves we are a lot less selfish than we really are. I think being in love is when you are able to be with another person and trust them to hold onto and keep your heart that you have offered safe inside them and you wanting to and doing the same. If both of you don’t keep up your end then it will come to blows soon enough. I have kind of sucked at this lately and am determined to stop sucking.
Boyfriend is gone for a week or two… time for sexually frustrated me to come out. That means lots of work, working out and masturbation. I hope I can manage.
